The Witch Is Back.

DING DONG! The wicked witch of Upper East Side is BACK!

Yes, after seeing the 22nd episode of GG [Southern Gentlemen Prefer Blondes], I am in love with Georgina Sparks all over again! Sure, she wasn't the manipulative beeyatch we saw last season, but I know, I feel, that there is still the beeyatch torch inside her heart! xD

'Blair? You came here with Blair? Actually,today is my day-off...and I kinda miss the city."

Changes.

Gah. I've been spending the past few days of April in front of the computer. *sigh*
Okay, so these past few days I got so interested in so many things: Photography, Drawing etc. etc. It's kinda funny because I DON'T HAVE ANY DECENT ARTIST TOOL! [errr. except for Photoshop?!]
OK, We don't even have a Digital Camera. [Yes, believe me.]
And the only thing I have is a webcam and MUSIC PHONE with built in 2 Mega PX Camera.
That's that bad, getting interested in photography when you have nothing. I'd be very, very thankful if I had a Digital Camera--but, sorry to say, its a NO. I'm not going to be very ambitious. I won't shoot the stars for a dSLR at this moment... 1. Because it's not something very affordable.
2. Because I'm still undergoing minor technicality-tutorials.
I'm teaching myself...but how could I? I don't even have a camera. [ERR.]
My composition skills are a bit honed. [A BIT. It's not that great, you know.]
And that's the only thing I'm holding on to. Oh well. I guess my photography-dreams will end up with Forensic Photography. [Just so you know, I want to be a forensic. (AMBITIOUS!)]
But it's pretty funny--I'm still trusting my 'artistic eye' through all of these. HAHA!
Ok, let's go on with academics...
I PROMISE, I WOULD KILL MYSELF IF I WILL BREAK THIS PROMISE.
I will dedicate the next months for College Exam Preparations. [Yes. I'm reviewing, going to universities....etc.etc.]
I really, really, REALLY want to go to UP and kick my butt off there NO MATTER WHAT MY COURSE is.
BS Biology -- crossing my fingers for med school!
?? Behavioral Science/ or maybe Psychology -- I dunno, this course gets you a job like a brand manager, they say.... GAH. I dunno.
BA English Literature or maybe BFA Creative Writing -- OF COURSE, I spent my WHOLE LIFE writing [from my karabaw English back in Kinder up to my frustrated novelist status now.]
BFA Visual Communication -- I'm hoping that the time I wasted in front of the PC doing all sorts of crazy art schemes will pay off. [PERO MAY TALENT TEST TO AH?! And I heard you have to draw.... OH GOSH I'M FRIGGIN' dead.]
If ever VC won't work for me, I swear, I'm filling in 'BS Clothing Technology' on that empty field [WHAT?! Chemistry...AGAIN!!! NO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Enough valencing for me!]
I also want to take the ACET. [oh, umasa pa.] Of course, I'm requiring myself to try my luck in a science course. [BECAUSE if ever. [operational phrase 'if ever'] I passed and got a DOST Scholarship, well then, this will give DOST a full use to my education. LOL.]
Honestly, I want to take an English course in ADMU, but fine, a big GOOD LUCK to the tuition fee.

XOXO.

Home is where the heart is.

I know, I know, I've been spending too much time in front of the PC. xD
But that's because I can't go somewhere else at this point. AWW.
Err. Somebody call the Boredom Doctor.

FEVER pitch.

Staying 24/7 inside the home made me feel like my parents held me a captive of this 2-story hell.

I dunno, but boredom never really get this worse since then. I kept on updating and updating and updating every account I have in the WWW but it seemed really boring and repetitive, though.

I also watched Slumdog Millionaire, Taken, Milk, The Duchess and even POOHKWANG on DVD, but it doesn't even help. LOL

I get lots of amount of sleep these past few days since I always got nothing left to do. [Oh, crap, yeah, I'm slacking off once more! I should be saving those entrance exams books from the realms of the dusty bookshelf.]

But I don't feel like opening them and reviewing, I still felt very low during these times.

I can't get my mind off my grades, fine, I'll be passing and going on for the 4th year in Val Sci, but I still feel they're not going to be good enough to be one of the make of a good college resume .

I dunno, my self-esteem is in it's lowest point right now, maybe because of some factors around me--I don't know what those factors are, but I still keep on believing that I'm not really good enough in every aspect.

It's kinda weird but I think I like the idea of staying out of 'trouble' [i.e. some notorious school people...at least, for me] for a while. Or even the idea that I'm not in school is very calming for me. I like being a homebody, but somehow I still contain this boredom.

Camille's Birthday is a total salvation for the boredom but totally not a cure to my self-confidence issues. My friends are becoming very concerned about these issues that they don't even know what to do to me. It's as if they're thinking more about how to cope with these issues rather than raising my self-esteem, which is a good thing and I appreciate it.

I'm totally blessed because I have Gossip Fille to back me up, but it seems I don't have any space inside me to contain the contentment of what I had. The depression is overwhelming me but I'd rather not to show it. I don't know how I was able to keep everything inside me and trnaslate only here, but I can't show it personally, face-to-face, even with my friends...

Feeling the Summer heat

CRAAAAAAP!

What sucks most about Manila is the annoying weather change. ACHHHHOOOO. I feel sick these past few days since 'summer' started.

Well, let's take a look on the bright side. :)

At last! I tinkered with the piano again after a long, long time ago! I finally completed a piece [yay!]. It's called "The Entertainer" by Scott Joplin. It's pretty funny that I kept on playing it for hours and never get used to it!

I also started a Plurk and Chictopia account. [SOB for Plurk, I only have 19+ karma. T.T] On the other hand, I never imagined Chictopia would be this fun!! :O I mean, I had this perfect chance to browse and let other people say something about what I'm wearing. Cool, right?

Bleeaah. I'm hoping my sister could finally buy a digital slr cam. HAAAAAY. It's been a long wait already. :)

Ugh. I also have one thing in mind.

REVIEW! I have to review, whether I like it or not! Here I come college application forms! [SPLURGE!] OWWW.

xoxo.

Summer Diaries! Part One!

Yesterday, April 3, 2009, 53 other batch mates went aboard to Need's Amusement Park and Resort in Pampanga with our Elementary student counterparts.

It was no surprise that the children could be very bratty and makulit.
They even had less patience than us!!! *woot!*

At first, I don't really have an official alaga so I decided to offer my help to Camille. It turns out, the kid's name is also DANIELLE! Danielle was silent at first but of course, like any of the kids do, she broke out from her shell.

Angelica took care of Eeian, he's the first one I got to talk and we tease each other. He's really friendly and he really likes to play with us. We even had this 'techie talk' while on the way to the resort!

Cristine, Gillean and Jo's kids were all shy!

Sarah and Fatima's kid is Ivan, he's really cute. Paglaki siguro nito, crush ng bayan! We even heard he's a good chess player!

When we arrived at the resort, Danielle is so much eager to swim! She's really excited! [Of course, the others too.] But we have to take part on a lecture. After the lecture, we ate some snacks and here we go! The DIP!

It was so much fun because the whole batch [except for some] would look pretty silly at times because we frequently freak out or worry about the kids in the other pool area!

After the swim, the recognition took place. Danielle has been awarded "Most Responsible" because according to their adviser, she acts as the 'ate' to the other kids.

Cristine's kid, Erna bagged the title "Most Polite", while Gillean's Uhndrea was the Best in Filipino. Jo's Reixa is the "Most Improved" and Eeian is the "Most Cheerful".

After the ceremony, we have to go home [darn, that early?!] and we have to bid goodbye to our alagas since they'll be riding another bus with the parents.

It was very exhausting but fulfilling at the same time. Ü

xoxo,
G.

Terrible.

I felt so terrible today.
I never felt this weak for a long time now.

Honestly, my feelings are so hard towards some of my friends now.
I understand why they did it because I felt the same way as they did and it crossed my mind.
But I never have the urge to commit it.

It felt that there are devils lying beneath their minds controlling them to do it.

Sure, they are vulnerable, but such thing is a sin already.

Haay. Pero ayaw pa din nila makinig.